I’m back! Ooh, I missed writing my column last month while moving home, but I can tell you that country life is agreeing with me! :) Waking up each morning to the sweet serenade of the birds is a welcomed relief from the clanger of city life. Yet, I am not letting the grass grow too long for I am now in America for a 3 month teaching tour. And for my duration here, I will be bringing you news of my travels inspired by what is flowing through from Spirit. And this month, the theme appears to be around the topic of ‘spiritual protection’.
In February, Merlin’s Circle was launched. As the first, live spiritual development group, Merlin’s Circle provides on-line classes aired each week via YouTube. In the first class we had over 1500 souls’ worldwide tune in to watch myself and my development circle discuss spiritual awakening. I have wanted to offer free classes like this for some time now. So many people are waking up to the light of their being and I understand – through my own experiences – that this is often a confusing road to take. One of the most frequent questions that I have been asked through Merlin’s Circle is whether spiritual protection is needed, i.e., is there anything to protect ourselves from when we open up energetically? As I have mentioned in many of the classes you do not need to call in on any form of protection. Let me explain why I have come to this reasoning.
From Fear to Compassion
When awoke to knowing I was spirit in physical form, I believed that there was something to fear in the world of Spirit. It was part of my conditioning that had been ingrained from a young age. “Where there is light, there is darkness”, my first mentor said. And because I trusted this, my belief triggered the need to invoke protection in later life when I became a professional healer. I would start my healing sessions invoking spirit guides, wrapping colours around me and repeating affirmations, all of which I thought were guarding me against something ‘darker’. This ritual continued throughout, and after the session too. In my heart, this ritual never felt quite right.
What was I protecting myself from? The energies that I was channelling were not ‘dark’ or to be frightened; far from it. They were light and loving. I thought, surely if I am embodying this in my vibration, no protection is needed? At this stage in my life, I had started working alongside the angels. In meditation, I asked to speak to an angel that could help me understand protection. I thought Archangel Michael may manifest as he is widely known to bring protection to those who invoke his energy, yet I didn’t feel I needed protection; I wanted to know why collectively as a race we feel we need it. Archangel Cassiel, a lesser known angel, came forward. He said his role is to help humankind to understand fear and to transcend the need to hold on to it when they are divinely ready. I asked Cassiel to show me what there was to fear in doing spiritual healing (and in general) and he simply said, “Fear itself”.
Attuning to Cassiel more in meditation I saw my own fears that I was carrying: of water, the dark, of betrayal and of spiders. Cassiel told me, “If you conquer these Calista, you will never feel the need to protect yourself again.” I knew in my heart what he meant but my mind still questioned. I asked for more help. Over the months that followed, I decided to learn to swim again and asked Cassiel and the water elementals to help me let go of my fear of water.
It was a long road but with each mini accomplishment I achieved, my fear lessened its grip on me. Through the study of shamanism, I came to understand that the fear of the water, namely placing my head underneath its surface, as well as the fear of the dark that I was holding on to, was as an apprehension of my true divine Self – that it was my Light that was more daunting to embody than any darkness that I could perceive within or around me. I feel this is why many self-sabotage and block fulfilling their divine path for a fear of their innate power.
During each of my shamanic initiations, spiders would manifest either physically or etheric ally on and around my body. Although, terrifying to begin with, this experience helped me to understand spiders, to learn about them, to appreciate them for who they are and with understanding came compassion and a loss of fear. Cassiel told me after this experience that he often manifests as a spider to help people transcend fear. So now when I see a spider I know I am on a breaking-through another old belief or conditioning helping me even more. When we give light to fear we break it down through acceptance, understanding and compassion; it has no hold over us. As I brought in more compassion for myself, my perception of fear lifted and with it the belief that I needed to protect myself. I realised that there is nothing in the spirit world to be fearful of only what we can conjure up through the internal beliefs we carry. Clear and transcend your internal being ultimately clears away any external projections manifested from within. Once we understand this through the eyes of compassion, we set ourselves free from fear.
Become Empowered!
Below are some ways that helped me to empower myself.
When we affirm we need protection we are stating we are in some way, un-safe. We are giving away our own power to place ourselves in the hands of something else. In everything you do, spiritual or otherwise, stand strong in yourself. Affirm you are a Divine being; a spark of God, Creation, Source, Love – whatever feels right for you. This is your protection: your Self!
- Instead of asking for protection or telling yourself you are safe, affirm that All is well. If you feel you can’t trust this to begin with, remember anything that makes you feel fearful is an aspect of your internal being manifesting itself in something external, and it is doing so because you are ready to let it go. Appreciate this as a turning point that you can move through, rather than a challenge.
- Make love to fear. Appreciate it for what it is; a leverage step to understanding yourself more. Be patient with yourself in loving and accepting all that you are, including your fears, joys, loves and pains. Know that all experiences are neutral no matter what pole of the spectrum your mind / society thinks they fall into.
- Keep in the vibration of joy and love as you surrender all fears to the Universe. Let the universe take care of what you feel has been binding you. It will always listen and honour your requests for it is you in essence.
- Let go of the need to protect yourself when you travel and release the beliefs that you need to shield yourself from anything eternal. See yourself in all life and embrace oneness to break down any illusions of fear.
- If you have difficulty doing this, just relax and be compassionate with where you are at. There is no rush and no ending in self-discovery and ascension. Remember, all experience brings expansion and growth. In Love all-ways, Calista.
For more support to standing in your power visit the meditation store to download your copy of Become Self-Empowered MP3 – one of the most popular of journeys on the website! And for more information on bursting the fear bubble visit https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_GT8G37xw9c for a special podcast from the Soul Ascension Show, aired, April 2015.
